Poem: The Spring of Love and Loss
The recent burst of work and travel has made me too busy to write. I hate this, so I wrote these pieces of poetry which turned out to be a sudden spring of love and loss on Whatsapp.
While each poem stands out on its own, I have not titled them individually. So without much ado, I share them here.
Poem: The Spring of Love and Loss
How far can I go
When I am leashed
With your soft words
And your memories
Pull me back like a magnet
For I am a rusted iron
Still getting attracted
With the power of your words. (1)
I just wonder
How many moments
Did I occur
In your thoughts?
Because that’s where I live
Beyond my physical existence. (2)
When I think of you
I see spring and flowers
I smell roses and jasmine
I touch my heart and it still beats
I hear the music of your voice and laughter
I taste the sweetness of your thoughts
My senses are filled with you
I turn a human brimming with life. (3)
Remember those days
My words meant a lot
To me and you
Like the grass and
The morning dew
And your words shone
Like the morning sun
I melted into a vapor
Rising to reach you
But rained back
As a summer shower
Only to hug the grass
Waiting for the morning sun. ( 4)
Why is that
I remember you
And smile at nothing
My mind opens
Like a blossom in spring
Showering nectar
Of wilful words
Like a monsoon torrent
Warm and soothing
Pure and sweet
Ah! I love this life. ( 5)
I don’t plan to save these words
For I am an eternal spring
Of gibberish words
Which you read and forget. (6)
Would be the thoughts
The same if we were together
For we are whispering
From a distance
Yet we hear them loud
As if we were close
Holding our hands
Eyes closed
And listening…
And waiting…
First the silence
Then your voice
Like the sweetness
Of that cool breezing
Teasing my senses
Touching my soulWould be the thoughts
The same if we were apart
Holding you in my memories
You the Flower, I the Vase,
Not quite the same
If we were together
But we still decorate
Our lives with these memories
Watered by our sighs.(7)
The idea of being kids
Magnifies the innocence
And more symbiotic
Like butterflies and blossoms
Like the breeze and the waving corn
My heart is filled with the glee
To think of us holding hands
And running free
Wind in our air
Sky at our feet
Where magic is usual
Just being for each other
And just being kids
Is my dream for us. (8)
I want to be aloof
Ignoring the walls
That you have built
But my heart seldom listens
Pines for those good days
Of breeze that blew
From my side to yours
Your side to mine
But the wall you built
Has blocked the breeze
Do I listen to my heart
Or just let the wall be
In today’s world
The later is better
I shall let my heart
Ache silently
As the wall still stands. (9)
All I had to do
Was to think of you
Like a spark that flares
Into an insatiable fire
As if with a vengeance
A dearth-less spring
A volley of verses
Of love and loss
An endless rainbow
Ending a season
Of blank screens
And empty minds. ( 10)
You said I never smile.
Today I smiled.
Just a curve of lips
And a puff of my cheeks
Hairy and all that.
Felt like a flower
The stubble face
A thorny flower
It felt light
Ah that’s how
The flowers must feel
Light and easy
Within, somewhere.
Then somebody saw me smile.
They smiled.
Like how a spark
Lights another
Now you make sense indeed. (11)
Hope you all enjoy this spring ( outburst) of love and loss.
~Ashok Subramanian © 2023
